LIFE STORY, without you.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I think its about time i stop putting others before self and worrying too much about other ppl and their actions and focus on where i want to be and what i want to achieve within the next few years. It's for my own good and to avoid any more disappointments to come.I need a break, thankfully ive a term break coming.if ther's a time i wish i can be in some other place away from all this and be very very far away it has to be right now, the ultimate perfect moment. And dun ask me why, but i just refuse to accept the way things are going to be.Oh and ther's no such thing as a happy ending, or a forever or a till death do us apart, coz ther r all BULLSHIT!

Take me somewher far away....

-our love story ;

Monday, May 25, 2009

Sorry peeps ive been mia for a very long time.My last entry dates about more than a month ago.My absence from the blogging world ahould explain how things arnd me are keepin me busy.

My Cambodia trip which lasted from the 19th to 26th Apr was a very enriching one.I thank god and some of my friends, bcoz if not for them, i wouldnt have signed up for the trip.In fact as th 19th was drawing nearer and nearer, i was dreading a lot.Mainly because it was the first time in 22 years that i was leaving away w/o anyone close following me along, and that too for 7 days along.I was also amazed at how much i was freaking out about my trip.I felt so sad, actually nver been tht sad for a very long time.

Eventually Priyalatha survived the Cambodia trip.I made a whole bunch of friends and i got even closer to my coursemates whom i dun even acknowledge during normal school days.I cried during the last nite at PKH as i was really moved by their act of kindness and sincerity towards us. I wasn't expecting to cry but i cried lol.For now, i really miss the students and their warmess.I really hope i can go back there some time in the future and once again render my services.

The experience back there has really taught me to treasure even the little things in my life. I really love my family and friends a lot. Words jus cant describe how much i missed them during ma trip.I was very homesick during the initial period of stay but things go way better as days went by. I am proud to say that i am now not so afraid of insects, bcz in Cambodia, i interacted with all kinds of them from the small ones to big ones, colourful ones, scary looking ones, weird cross breeds, I cant really recall how many of them i slept with in my sleeping bags. I have never used this much of insect repellent in my 22 years of life b4. The best insect award goes to the one tht Jen killed when we were in the hotel room, which emitted a kind of metallic smell tht stinked the dustbin.

To my dearest lil gang members, thanks for coming down to the airport to recieve me.I was really caught by surprise.I am not sure abt how u guys regard me as but to me, you'll always be my special ones whom i hold on to very dearly and keep you close to my heart. Nothing will ever change between us till death do us apart.PS: Please make sure u really know wht u r getting urself into,its not the right time to experiment other species.

There is this one person, in my life whom i seldom get along with 365 days 24/7 all the time. But i think we both missed each other alot during my trip.The very fact that we missed each other loads signifies that we really love each other alot.It is just that the way we show and reciprocate is different of coz, if u know wht i mean.I realise everything happens for a reason.God just
includes some people in your life to teach you many valuable lessons.

"this is how the story went,
i met someone by accident
who blew my away blew me away
it was in the darkest of my days
when you took my sorrow, took my pain
and buried them away, and buried them away
i wish i could lay down beside you
when the day is done and wake up to ur face
against the morning sun
but like everything ive ever known
you disappear one day
so i spend my whole life hiding my heart away"

I pin so much of hopes on you, but not once or twice, all the time u nver fail to disappoint me. Despite that and everyone's advices, i cannot understand why i find it so difficulot to move on. Actually im quite sure i'll be able to soon.Just when everything seemed so perfect, this has 2 happen.It's like some kind of disaster.

Mp is killing me everyday.I feel extremely dumb and stupid due to my inability to perform up to his expectations.I fear for the overall outcome of my MP grade which is worth 17 credit units. I really need to do well in this, but it dwells on me that im putting in all i can to the extent that im beginning to get exhausted. Ever since, Mp began, i sleep by 11 and im awake by 730. I rush like anything jus to board bus no 15 on time so that i'll be able to clock in on time.When i reach home at 6 plus, im so tired to even do anything and i sleep early so that i can scrape thru the next day. This office hours regime is taking a toll on me. It's getting more and more difficult to wake up every day.I am the most happiest person on earth on Fridays, and im so sad on Sundays..bcz the next day is Monday. Mondays are the worst days of the week.

-our love story ;