LIFE STORY, without you.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Hee, i cancelled 98% of ma tuition lessons for the week, cz i lost ma ez link card at hme and the other days i just had no mood to teach la.

Cant wait for Dhools to start at 630pm and the F1 race to start at 730pm, other than that im bored to death for the day.

I have yet to clear my study table which is in a mess, really damn messy and the stuffs on it keep piling n piling.

I want to do so many things..

-chill out
-drink coffee
-watch movies
-play luxor
-use access card n talk 2 a monkey in adelaide
-go shopping
-buy slippers
-eat waffle ice cream from NYDC

My dear fren,
i know i dun have any rights to control ur life, actually im nt controlling ur life, ive always supported u for things u really wanted to, but regarding this matter im completely against it.I just cant bring myself to accept that you are with that person.You were not born like that so you don't have to behave like one.I f u were type who really fear about what others might think of u, then u shd have stop whatever u r doing nw. long long time ago.You have younger siblings and you need to set a good example for them.Whether you know it or not, they are looking up to you, following your actions and everything.You cant blame them for not really regarding you as one of their best sister ever, bcz jus look at urself.So i really hope you will stop doing whatever that need to be stopped.I know it is difficult to let go of things that are closest to your heart, but for the sake of your future and for all of us who love you, please do okie?

-our love story ;

Friday, September 26, 2008

Wah..i feel so good, I had a good long sleep after a very long time, of cz it was interrupted by a sudden surge in ma smses this morn, but i handled it very well by not replying to most of them untill i decided to.

I wish i was in some other part of the world so that i can catch the 2 hour season premier of greys anatomy season 5 .=), Or if any1 is willing to download it for me ...i'll love u like i how i love my friends lol.

I need to agree wif some things mentioned in other ppl's blog.

" in terms of assignments and tests, but it just cant be compared to a normal, everyday week ive had during A levels."

( this is so true, to a large extent, but those tortourous 3 years have taught me many things in life, and i guess i am able to handle most of the things that are happening arnd nw bcz i went thru those 3 years, it definitely made me a stronger person, in the sense that i can deal better wif failures nw lol )

"You decide that you do like him and decide to get to know him better, BUT u also realise that it's not really gonna work for one too many reasons but you can't stop yourself from getting closer even though you know its..wrong.God, how many times has that happened? How many times?And to complicate things, the past comes into play. Ex-es (if any), guys whom you had a history with (but couldn't be with for, as mentioned, too many reasons) or that guy whom you never could remove from your life from the day you met him till now.Sometimes u wished things could be a little less complicated. Like you could leave the emotions out of the picture and just go...with the flow"

(If only matters of the heart were less complicated, that would make our lives so much better i guess.The part wher u know it's wrong and useless, but u still pursue it, i wonder why that happens, although u r the one whu keeps gettin hurt in the process , but u still go on.And i just hate the exes, they cant just leave from our thoughts can they?They jus keep appearing man, somehow.No matter how hard we try to forget or forgive it just cant happen..hmm)

"i still would like to fall in love with a guy who knows me in and out as a fren."

and falling in love with that guy is like a sudden moment.its like this best fren of urs goes thru with u ur bad relationships and so do u seeing him go thru his bad relationships and one day it just suddenly occurs to u that hey ur best fren is actually the best companion u can find in ur life but all this while u have been searching outside when the person is right before u.so for that type of feeling to occur it takes years i believe.not 1 or 2 but atleast 5 or 6 or even more than that..and during this period of time he or she is totally being himself or herself.so i feel like its more like what u see is what u get at the end."

(I agree wif what this person has mentioned, i rather fall in love or get married to some1 whom i've known for long enough, rather than to spend the rest of my life with a total stranger.God pls make sure this doesnt happen to me.The friend we are talking abt here, is like ur other half, he prob knows more things abt u than yourself, he just knows you well enough, inside out, ur ugly, dirty, beautuful secrets too.)

"when u date someone i just feel that there is so much need to impress.from looking good to eating proper.in my opinion it gets too fake after a while."

( true enuff, the whole dating matter just isnt my cup of tea, true beauty lies in the heart)

I have successfully manage to skip 2 days of my DRP, because i just cant stand the sight of that bitch, my acting supervisor, since ma actual sup is not in town, i miss him so badly la, u will only learn to appreciate the good things when they r not around.

But i did have my fair share of fun during the torture session.Ther is a whole grp of us who works in the greenhouse office.Myself n my partner whu r doing the so called DRP proj and we r frm sch of eng, and then ther r 2 lecturers (proj sups nt mine); 1 from china and the other namely mr daniel, 1 TSO ( my proj sup whu is out of town); and then 2 guys whu r doing SIP/MP on aquaculture and while they have been waiting for fishes to arrive since duno when, they r currently keepin us well entertained, and then another 2 girls n a guy whu works with us in the hydropincs greenhouse since their SIP/MP is abt hydroponics and their proj sup is my proj sup aka the TSO.So i went to Ikea for lunch in one of the AC guy's car, with the whole group which was a new experience bcz i have never hopped in2 some1's car jus like that haha.Oh and the 2 AC guys they are damn hilarious i tell.They can talk to u anything abt any topics ranging from sex to bra sizes to gfs to gossips, see that's y i told u they r very entertaining!I mange to sneak into Temasek's Animal Facility, i was really curious to see what's inside, ther are rabbits n cats n rats inside.The rabbits ther r being treated like superstars, they've gt ppl to do husbandry for them, they r provided wif regular meals n water, they can give birth, they've got medical attention..wht more can they ask for..so that's y they look damn big and fluffy and cute.When we went ther a rabbit had jus given birth a few days ago, so we manage 2 see the baby rabbits..hehe so fun.And then ther was 1 day, wher we lied to our sup, the bitch, tht we still attending to stuffs in the greenhouse, but we all went 2 the library to watch a movie together, like 6 of us, and the movie we watched was MR WOODCOCK.And guess what Mr Daniel buys lingerie for his sister..i found it damn cute..and we found this out when he flashed out his Triumph & La Senza membership cards haha and we were laughing non stop after that...

The F1 race is definitely hot & sizzling.The cars r hot, the drivers r hot..oohh i wish i was rich enuff to book a room at Fullerton to catch the excitement, but the tv coverage is not too bad either, so i shd settle for that tmr!For now, my support goes out to L Hamilton....I love u darling, pls get in2 the no1 position tmr Muacks.

-our love story ;

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Hey revathi, which tweety told u that?That tweety has got a big mouth la, btw i was defending u lol..=)

Ok the whole week was *&^% tiring and damn hectic cz it went by as follows:

Monday : DRP + PP(potong pasir tuition)
Tuesday : DRP + UBI tuition
Wednesday : DRP + PP tuition
Thursday : DRP + UBI tuition
Friday : DRP + an excrucitaing 2.5 hr dental session
Saturday : Temple in the morn, aft n even was " spent walking arnd the whole of SGP"
Sunday : PP tuition + X ray

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About the long walk on sat, i swear all of us were damn mad at Bavani, cz of her dumb directions ah n our attempts to settle the balloon sculpting thingy was futile.The day started badly, cz they gave me the wrong directions to walk to the temple from Lavender mrt, and after walking about 3km under the scorching sun, i felt smth wrong, so i called the idiot (bavani) again n reconfirmed, and then she told me i was supposed to walk in the reverse direction, of cz she forgot 2 mention abt the direction la..damn, i crossed over n took the bus, tht's when i bumped into kyky..

So after the prayers n all, we wanted to settle the balloon deco, so once again according to bav, turf city got 1 shop which specialises in this kinda stuffs la, so we headed to turf city from lavender, took train to Clementi which reminded me of my MI days, and then from Clementi took shuttle servise to Turf City, the shop at turf city was like damn disappointing wasnt like what we expected it to be, besides the boss wasnt arnd n the person ther was useless as she knew nuts abt balloon deco, walau damn irritating i tell u, and then ma friend's mum suggested we shd jus go back home, btw my friend's mum she's damn nice, i really envy my friend 4 that, but then we decided to head back to Bugis area .Oh n that too was bav's suggestion, she claimed that ther r party shops at concourse building, so we took train to er bugis i think from ther it was a long walk to concourse building, n the weather was bad and all of us were in punjabi suit tops, so u cn imagine la, upon reaching concourse building we couldnt find any shops at all, when we enquired at the reception desk, they told us that the party shops have relocated back to sum building la wah...dambn frustrating la haiz. but still the ordeal wasnt over, we walked like about 45 mins to the bus stop we had 2 takes bus from..i came back n hme and tried to sleep cz my legs were aching like hell, but couldnt..

One of these day im gna pass out during my dental treatment, i jus cant stand the screeching sound of the machines when she grinds the teeth, ouch and its damn painful, thankfully last fri she decided to numb the area n do the whateva blah blah treatments for the day, n bill came up to 500 plus, n i came back home wif a half swollen face looking a bruised pig, cz the swelling effect due 2 the numbness hadnt reduced yet..i couldnt even breathe..When i went to do ma X ray tdae, it was only when i had to pay the bill, i realise i din bring my pouch which contained the cc cards n the NETS, i was like oh shit!, n i din even have 10cents wif me, i was that broke..n the place is at Sembawang, ther was no way i was going to go back to bedok n then come back to pay, n the recptionist was improving the situation, she was like "no u haf 2 pay, if not i cannot close the system "So guess what i did? I told her i need to speak to my dentist n jus sat down.She gave me the blank look.When ma dentist came out, she was very understanding she even told me i need not haf 2 pay at sembawang, i can pay at pasir ris and i can take my time..she's damn nice la, u shd haf seen the receptionist face, it was....horrible.

I was very enthusiastic about the DRP (research) project thingy initially, when i was signing up for the diff proj titles and all, but my hopes were all dashed lol, when i got ma project asst. I got "chilled hydroponics technology".OF COURSE i was fooled by the phrase "chilled".So guess hw i spent my DRP, i do seed germination (like so far i think i did once onli), harvesting ( taking out the grown stuff), cleaning (this i do all the time); the cleaning is the tedious part, cz u got 2 clean the tanks, the styrofoam boards tht comes wif holes, and it is filled wif algae, at times ther is oso caterpillar faeces, but the best part is u cant spot the caterpillar.The temperature in the greenhouse is like *&^%.The conditions inside ther are ideal for plant growth not for humans.It's so hot, humid and dry..yucks this kinda weather sucks i tell you and try working in ther for like few hours, u'll get a free tan!So i jus hate the GREENHOUSE!But the onli nice thing abt the whole DRP , is the proj supervisor, he's very flexible and nt demanding lol.I wish i was wif ma classmated in the lab, growing micro___plantlet _____, and they get to work in the lab which is cooler of course. I am more of the lab rat than the greenhouse caterpillar haha. But he did give us some job to do at the lab which i think we'll have 2 cont doing tmr, But calibration is not easy either..it's freaking irritating n a tedious process, so on the whole we are being used as free labour for the DRP project.But the students from AS sch whu r working wif the eng lecturers like doc raja, they r really handling a high calibre research work, damn...I swear i HAVE LEARNT TO APPRECIATE PLANTS MORE!!!

To my dear fren in distress,
sorry 4 laughing at u and making a mockery out of the whole situation while u were crying, but it did help a bit rite, haha, sumtimes we need to laugh off 2 let go of some matters, bcz come on, this is nt the first time we r goin thru this shit n crap, it's a cycle tht goes n on n on, which will continue 2 last as long as we r under their shelter, they haf control over our finance , we r nt married and we are still living here. Although we are 21 yrs of age, we can onli get our freedom when we leave this country and i cant wait for tht day. So dun worry dear, no matter wht happens life has to go on, okie muacks. ( PS: I HOPE U HAVE BROKEN UP WITH U KNOW WHO)

-our love story ;

Friday, September 12, 2008

I THINK VISHAL FROM SATHYAM IS DAMN HOT LA!!!!!!!SIZZLING HOT !!!And it's quite rare that i go ga ga over actors..and the song chellame chellame is so mesmerizing..ohh ahh

K now for the serious stuff,

Results r out, so i can sleep peacefully.My performance is bad. But this were the exact results i had predicted, so nothing shocking or nothing new, except that i was expecting a C for one ofthe subjects.In fact i had just given up studying even before study break started.No momentum,no drive..just no mood to hit the books.These results were based on ma last min preparation so i am very much contented with it, although i know many would not feel the same for me The results wld have showed hw much i slacked for this semester..for ppl whu know me well enuff.Next sem will b the toughest in ma poly life, i need all the help i can from everyone to pull thru the coming semester.

Im not some1 whu lies abt my studying habits or techniques or the difficulty level of the papers.All my comments r honest ones n are from the bottom of my heart.

This time around ther isnt much excitement or oohs aahs abt the release of results.I guess people change a lot.It proves to be a good point wher u really sieve out ur true friends n whu genuinely care about performance, and in fact it's actually quite surprising that they know so much about you and what's happening in ur life w/o u telling about them.So in fact like rev had mentioned, i too shouldnt judge people too quickly without getting to know them better.

As for those whu choose to go MIA, and appear to be alive when school starts it just shows how u treat ur friends n the ones whu really care about u, like a piece of tissue.Is it too much to ask for a reply call or a reply msg?Wonder wher did ur basic courtesy went hiding into!So much for everything, seriously so much for everything. for not giving up in u ppl, and for being concerned, thanks for the treatment!Dun bother feeling guilty or whatsoever cz its worthless to me.

The fact that i turned 21 doesnt seem to b a very good thing. I get headaches too many times within a week untill i lost count,Now the tooth ache, gosh y so much fuss abt a wisdom tooth, y din it grow normally as all the other teeth did..Oh but i feel very wise now..hehe

-our love story ;