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Thursday, August 28, 2008

The aftermath of exams is definitely blissful but to a certain extent...

Exams ended yesterday(wed 27.8) at 1130pm.After that i was hit wif a massive migraine that left me in a daze till the wee hours of the morning.Now that ther's a lot of free time for me 2 idle at home, i guess it's not too good for me to stay at home but then tht's wht i actually always do, i seem to be getting into a lot of arguments lately wif mom, for small matters.

As a matter of fact, ther is no peace at home, which leads to the most important reason for me to want to do complete my tertiary education elsewhere but not here.Canit wait for the day wher i wont have anyone controlling my activities n telling me what to do, and piling my workload...the moemnt they know my exams have ended.Within 5 hours ive gt a list of like 6/7 things to do damn..i cant imagine hw the no's r going to multiply in the next 7 weeks of my break.

I really really wanted to do a lot of things

-spend more time with you(A)

-meet you(B)

-catch up wif u (C)

-juz go out wif only the 2 of u (D n E)

ADCDE are all diff persons..

The one thing that i really wanted was..to go to the USA study trip.For the first time ever, finance was given a green light, so i was really looking forward to enrolling myself.But my buddies tht it was expensive, but i felt like it was quite reasonable for a 2 weeks trip.Further more chances are atht i'm never ever going to smell USA in next upcoming years of ma life, so i was actually quite disappointed.

Before exams began. i had a lot of things running thru my mind, which kinda affected my preparation for exams, so i was ill prepared for all my papers.Truly..So when the results arrive. im gna b erm i duno let's juz say i'll b contented if my gpa remains above 3.5.Im jinxed every semester to definitely haf a C grade in ma results no matter wht, but this sem..let's hope it doesnt happen..

So he called me out of the blue, and came up wif this movie plan thn we shd go out n all, but as days pass he din call or he din msg, im not surprised bcz it happens all the time.In fact im sure hes gt better things to do with other cousins, other friends, other soccer mates, and other cca mates, besides most of the clan's bdae fall on september if im nt wrong..

Im anxiously waiting for my tuition fees, but i damn paiseh n shy to ask bcz..nvm, n the best thing is i dun even know hw much tey r gna pay me, but trust i do wnjoy teaching the kid although she can be a major nuisance at times.Her younger siblings OMG, they r so manipulative, in fact they r oso so rude n their words r actually quite harsh to the point wher they manage to insult me bcz their tutor(a diff one) is a uni undergraduate and she drives n so being in a UNI is sucha big deal for them afterall, im only in a diploma, so they manage to convince themselves tht their tutor is much better than me..damn.I felt like slapping the kid's face but i dun haf any right to so, so i juz sulked saying "i dun care!"But one thing they r very very RUDE.

I've got this sore throat after eating a mango that cost 3.90 according to mum, n the throst hurts so badly untill i cant sleep at nite, it's jus so painful and i really wish i can reach out 2 my throat n pluck it n throw it away.My body's immune system which has been constantly failing, has gt no hope of recovery i think.It's time i invest in some multi vitamins to build up my immune system.The amount of phlegms i ________ is way too much, untill it leaves me wondering,,wher do all this liquid come from?Dun tell me it's the amount of water i drink in a day, or maybe i have those sinusitis prob which is probably y i have headaches like 4 /5 times in a week.

OH guess what! He LOVED the book.woohoo.I think im the onli one whu knows him the best in this world.Hw i wish i ca tell him that haha.He stayed up late at night juz to read the book n finish it for days although he was in camp.and MIND YOU bcz this is indeed a big issue as we r talking abt a person whu doesnt read anything else other the sprts section of the NEW PAPER.haha I feel so proud of myself hee hee.Im all smiles nw when i think abt it.

Yathra shw started of well, but it gt more n more boring later on.I was really falling asleep, i wonder hw cum ran was awake n she seem 2 b very entertained by it..hmm..we left at 11 bcz i stay at EUNOS, n i need to get back home frm nus..b4 it's too late, n i was cashless cz i spend a bomb on the taxi fare to Clementi, cz tht i was gna ba late for a "good" show..HE went for the show too, but i din see him lol.

The new paper version 2.0 sucks big time.TV is boring.Internet is boring.My social life is 0, nw i understand y far keeps associating me wif dr chia..lol..hey but atleast hes gt a family dude..

Tdae is TUESDAY!!I gna call rev n talk many many..

-our love story ;

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Wow blogger's dashboard is different nw..hehe for the better..looks more pleasing to the eyes lol.

I LOST MA FREAKING PCB BOARD AFT ITS GRADING!!!ARGH>>>HARDWORK WORTH ! SEMESTER ALL GONE SIA!!!

MAGNUM...CAN U RESIST THE TEMPTATION, aft yest nite's msn conv wif lil gang, i dun think i'm ever going to eat magnum ice cream animore, the 2 monkeys aka Fariz n Shahid, have simply brought a whole new diff meaning to Magnum ice - cream n the spokesperson Eva Longoria hahaha..Thkz ah peepz...

Im glad to have them as my friends..in fact they r bestest guy friends any girl can get in this world, so i shd consider rev n myself LUCKY..

lub u all loads..n i miss u all loads

( i found this pic n i told myself i had 2 scan it,

haha..spot the extra in the pic!!)

( of cuz tis is the best pic eva..i intend to get it

framed, im serious k)

(looks + intelligence + character =?)

(the fantastic 4)

(im so glad that, that episode of our life is over)

(hey revathi persumal, sikkuram vaadi,i miss u

alot...)

(haha..;p)

-our love story ;

Monday, August 11, 2008

k i hate this feeling..i hate it totally..

I was fine doin my own work, minding my own issues, coping things well in all areas..but nw i dun haf the mood to do anything, no mood 2 study, no mood 2 eat...

If it was me in the past, i wldnt haf simply brushed all this matters aside, and get on moving, but now i cant, juz too difficult to block my mind...

It's my lab test tmr which i have decided to *&^% care abt it, bcz i have juz done too much for this subj already, now im juz gna leave things the way it is..

To all out ther, u ppl dun leave with me 24/7 , so u knw nuts abt me, hence dun judge me based on who i look like, basically dun think i'm like my mum because i look like her, i mean obviosuly if im her daughter i wld haf to look like her if nt ther's smth really wrong...if u really know me well inside out, then u wld haf realised long long time ago i'm nt like ma mum...

I kinda feel down, cz u made me feel like im the lousiest person on earth, i think i'm quite old enuff to discern right from wrong, but u made it sound like i've alredy tarnished the family's repututaion, when i havent done anything at all, this is wht i get in confiding in u, and unfortunately i wasnt ready to hear all this from u, from u esp ..some1 whom i thot wld know me well

My hp's keychain snapped in2 2...haha juz like the way our friendship did, which is prob y things u gave me din last as long as it should, im not surprised, hope u r doin well, so much for some1 whu said he/she wouldnt change even when he/she is attached.

Guys r a bunch of jerks (not all of cz), Seriously dun know hw u peepz can change so drastically over the years, i hope the guys i know are not like that.I know such things happen in town, but this is the first i hear of such a thing happenin so near me...I am very very troubled of ur behaviour.

For nw i wish i can teleport to somewher far away from all this...i'll bring along those whu wan 2 come along...wif me though =)

-our love story ;

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Well so much haf happened..

Anyways 2 more weeks of sch. n then a study week followed by exams, juz cant wait for this semester to end.

I'm so glad, that i chose leadership as ma cds subject for this sem, cz i've made such gd friends wif ma grp members.It kinda helps that wed comes right aft tue.Atleast my dosage of laughter account wld b settled on wednesdays.

I cant believe u r mine now, not really mine, but i know u r juz ther, i clearly know this whole thing is wrong, but somehw i want it so badly, u prob dun knw hw special u r yet, but that depends on the future( dun worry peepz im still single lol )

And as for u, every time i talk 2 u, i swear i feel so guilty for not telling u wht had happened, no idea y i feel so guilty, but u will always be part of my life no matter wht, maybe tht's y..

I miss ma daddy so much, and yea hes coming back on the 6th, gosh tht's like 2 month plus..hmmm

tht's all 4 nw..

-our love story ;