Friday, December 28, 2007
Sorry for nt answering calls lately pardon me i'm really busy..and i'm nt angry abt anything or with anyone.As much as i dun wan 2 leave matters hanging, i really dun knw hw 2 sort this out.I'm running out of time and i knw this can be irritating to some.But atleast i'm replying msgs for a start...
Today's soldering workshop was mind boggling.Most of my brain cells were used up today so ther isnt much left for the remaining semester.My LED simply refused to blink despite many attempts.The last thing i wanted to hear my tutor say was..maybe u shd patch this all over again.I wld haf juz fainted on the spot.Whu knew soldering wires and electrical components cld b so tricky and tedious.So i'm beginning to hate the engineering part of course.The happy news for nw..we gt to apply wht we learnt today for one of subjects to be taught next semester... think
The project load keeps piling and piling.I juz cant gear myself to start anything.According to my maths tutor i'm supposed to really have a good break ie wind up a bit bcz when sch reopens it's going to be really rushing.
The year has been terrible let's see hw great can the next yr be..hopefully.Labels: workshop
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Christmas wishes to all...
Congrats to AP for making it for the course..
Wishing a speedy recovery to bro, luv u okie muacks...
Advanced Valentine's day wishes to ravadosai(the name juz popped out)
Miss u guys a lot wish to LILGANG
Thanks a lot to DD for being ther wen i was gettin sick of hosp..
Thanks a lot to the sistas, i'l be back in action soon..
Thumbs up to kyky n siva for the fabulous christmas party and the can be improved presents...btw ue gifts were the best...
Condolences to myself 4 nt starting any projects..
A so Cute wish to daddy for going out wif 2 other guys to watch National Treasure 2
A shutup to mum bcz u've been creating noise pollution in the east region lately...Labels: christmas
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Tuesday, December 18, 2007
As if whateva tht has happened wasn't enough, the yr juz got worse...i wish i cld trade places with him, i think he doesnt deserve this..I've gt no mood for anything..ANYTHING..i dun care..Labels: operation
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My current no of posts reads 69..nice number eh...
Yay the term tests r over and it's term break nw..yippie..but the suckiest part wld b tht i still haf to go to sch on 31st of Dec hw idiotically pathetic can tht get?Haiz..i'm going to hate the all the even numbered semesters frm nw, bcz my brain refuses to work when tht weather is so cool and it's always raining..wah...
I've got 6 projects tht's..due a)Biochem proj...b)Biofund proj...c)Psycho proj...
d)PSPS..e)Edev proj during the enrichment prog...f)Comp prog proj...i think i had mentioned smth like i'm having a term break nw..so u can see it's isnt going to a break for me...
And so a certain someone has chosen to delete smth tht the person took so much of effort to strt it and develop it n so on..and nw it's all gone in ONE CLICK of the mouse.Arghh..and am i supposed to be blamed bcz i dun pass comments.if one can't cope with this kinda of things i really fear for this person's future bcz ther's so much more unpredicatable events tht will unfold in the years to come.
I'm sorry i cant say things directly, but neva haf i eva tht u as my friends wld haf becum so cheap and make urself availble for other ppl juz to get some things done.It's the most absurd thing i ever heard.I detest girls whu smoke.Worse still, if they claim tht tey have been trying to quit but havent been making any effort.So the person whu lights up a fag with u in times of trouble becums ur best friend?Is this hw ur best friend theory works?We r in this world for a reason, and we all have a purpose in life.Dun ruin or spoil it by doing dumb things.It's 'attention seeking' and really disturbing.Is this why u choose to have two close friends so that u can disclose or confide in some matters tht u really talk abt to another close friend?i think the other friend of urs wld truly be disappointed if she knws wht's happening.Ppl tell me to get away frm this kinda ppl, but i tell them no way, i cant juz leave themselves to rot to death in their rubbish dumps.
And as for the friendship tht i thot was over once n for all, a relationship tht i deemed closer than my own family.....i've decided to give it a 2nd chance.HOWEVER it will b a whole lot different and weird bcz sum things dun change.I am whom i am.Words tht pierce thru cant be forgooten easily.And i cant accept it, juz ncz one is angry or whatsoever tht doesnt give them any right to go on blabbering hurtful stuffs.It'll juz neva be the same anymore.I've becum more heartless aft experiencing so many of these incidents, tht nw i dun express my love or friendship or even shw my appreciation to some1 openly...simply bcz all this things remind me of u.I swear tht neva a day passes by without me thinking abt u, bcz u were VERY close to me once upon a time.Now we lead 2 diff paths, we know nuts abt each other, wht happened in sucha huge gap, times wher i knw onli u cld understand me and no one else would,but i took it as a new beginning.A new beginning tht onli focused on ma studies, school,family,cuzzins and a few close friends.I dun knw if u can b part of my life again.I dun wan to go thru series of fights juz to prove a point acrosee, I'm really sick n tired, n i've gt no more energy to argue tht much anymore.I've experienced pain,loss of life,love..so losing some1 close to me..i can accept it yea...
I am still confused whther i shd give it a 2nd chance.I've gt mixed opinions frm ppl..ppl whu were ther for me when u were nowhere in sight, but i knw our unison will bring a smile to a family, whom the bth of us care a lot about.So...should i or should i not?I need lots of courage for wht's abt to happen in a few hours time..I wish i wldnt haf to experience such an awkward moment in my life anymore...
I'm off to the bed..gdnitez ppl..
Jingle bells, jingle bells jingle all the way.......Labels: random
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Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Oh n to add to the misery my bro fractured his left arm....I wonder which ass casted his/her evil eyes on us.........
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I read her blog, the most recent entry to be specific.i'm nt so angry nw i guess...since all of us do get busy at some point of time in our lives esp when he have been slogging day n night for a major exam tht decides our fate...
I went for a minor surgery today.The process and the aftermath of the surgery is too damn damn fucking painful for me.The anesthetic was useless.My mum whu is a strong person even cldnt stand the amount of blood tht was trickling frm my wound nt to mention the amt of puss as well.The insertion of the gauze was the climax of the whole surgery.I was crying non stop after the surgery and was wondering why the hell i'm still alive aft this whole thing.Ive gt 2 more pprs to go which i have yet to prepare cz the pain seems more bothering nw thn anything else.i'll have 2 go for a dressing which means tey wld b removing the gauze n puttin in a new one inside the wound.I cringe at the thought of it, althought it's onli going to happen tmr.I feel immobile, handicapped, painful and tired. i think ther's nth else more painful than this eva...i'm seriously considering whther to give birth or nth i knw this is an no link issue though...
Oh god i need to get over this painful ordeal asap. i'm so worried abt my papers.Worst still the remaining two pprs are theory based nt calculation based.I'm going to be so dead.Juz whn things were goin ok in academic wise this has to happen to me.I wun b able to forgive myself if i perform badly..haiz.......
i need lots of strength..
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Saturday, December 08, 2007
I almost forgot my login passwrd this is wht too much of studying can do to u...
The pain is intolerable so i'm wondering hw cum i'm still alive..
My brain had reach its saturation point long long time ago but then i'm still trying force in more n more information haha, if only the brain cld talk...
Btw the ppl in ma hse dun communicate by talking to 2 each other, they choose to either scream or shout to express themselves.
Cant wait for term tests to be over next fri, nt tht i've been working very hard anyway
Some ppl r gettin on2 my nerves lately, i shall blame it on the pre exam period
They claim tey neva do this tht blah blah but in the end tey actually did it..so f them, nw i knw whom i can n cannot trust despite their flaws
Wht i do, hw i look is seriously none of ur buisness, ur comments arent welcome bcz i'm a living thing
I detest staying back aft sch for any type of activity, becz i'm like tht, i had enuff of this crap in the past 3yrs of ma life n battling with long bus rides n traffic james to reach hme, n if i really do stay back it's bcz of the respect i haf for tht friendship or for tht person..i'm being really honest here
Juz bcz u r pmsing, stresses, frustrated or what so eva tht doesnt give u any right to beheave in a way where it affects the ppl arnd u...since u cant accept it when we do the same thing to u..sumtimes the truth is hard to accept, but then some1 wldnt bother to point out ur mistakes unless tey really care
I think u guys shd put in more effort n compromise n try to resolve things bcz we cant go n pretending evrything is alright when it's not, and dun vent ur anger on us bcz we told u guys to settle matters...we r ur friends.......n trust me it's oso affecting us...
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