Monday, February 19, 2007
It's the 19th of Feb today, and ther's 3 more days to go for bu's departure. I wish i can spent this last few days with him but i can't due to other commitments such as tuition, work & etc. Even on the day he is departing i've gt 2 go work first before i can go airport. And even if i go there, it's not as if i get to spent all the time with him bcz his schmates, my czans and some other extras will be there. I din feel anything when he was leaving for the first time, but for some reason this time it's more erm...upsetting.The thing is whn he's here we wun tok realli much, bt aft he leaves But he's had a bad time since he came here for a 'holiday'. He broke up wif his gf, he had to go 2 work when he was supposed to be enjoying his ass off, had to hear my mum's ramblngs abt having to pay his rent although he's putting up here. Anyway, i would like to wish him all the best for his studies, hope he even comes back for the next holiday.
I'm losing patience while waiting for ma results. I don knw when the damn results are coming out. But it looks like the whole world is waiting to see my results. My aunts, uncles, czans, my dad's friends aiyoh...Why la they so enthu about ma results as if they were there when i was muggin and was so close to giving up.
My czan sister is staying over here, but i feel so uncomfortable about it. She's the one i'm teaching tuition. But regardless of that, i find it so damn difficult to communicate with her. She's the one whom the mother and brother ill treats. The one whu cuts herself whenever her mum scolds her. I was juz wondering if i did tht, i think ther wun b any patch of empty skin left if u know what i mean haha.
DEarest ran, dun worry da things will change for the better. As i told you our age and sex is such that we still can't do things of our own even if we feel that it's justified. Nobody knws us better than our own selves. This ppl whu condemn us and interfere in our lives despite the fact tht they dun haf any rights to do so will neva be by our side when ther is a need. We gotta juz ignore and pretend to agree.
-our
love story ;
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Well, i almost forgot my passwrd n user id haha. And so i'm back from my India trip, thaipusam is over, i'm still jobless, hippo's days are running short, hema has left, i talked to ran & amarit aft a long time...............
India trip was great.It proved to b a great bonding session betw me n daddy.I learnt lots of stuff abt him.Till today my admiration for him hasn't changed a single bit. He's the world's bestest daddy.We both had lots of fun wif the indian makkals (ppl) over ther.We visited a few temples like arnd 6, and at each temple we din spend more than 20 mins or doing countless archanais(prayers) aft listening to ppl saying u do for this god ah blah blah will happen. Thank god mum wasnt arnd wif us if not we wld haf atleast visited 20 temples ( bare minimum) and she will turn the entire trip into a prilgrimage tour...mothers haiz. Dad din scold me for nt wearing traditonal attire to temples and on other occasions i had complete freedom to wear wht i want haha. I knw daddy wldnt b able to survive without his boost of alcohol so i did grant him permission a few times to go out n drink wif his colleagues frm the embassy. Coz u onli get to meet this ppl like say once in a year or smth unless u fly to India like 3, 4 times a year la haha. So when daddy went out n i had to stay alone in this big apartment all by myself, the TV was ma companion. I had fun switching on the aircon n thn switching it off aft a few mins when it gets too cold. There were so many channels to watch so i was spoilt for choice. I hated long distance journeys. Those tht lasted like more thn 3 hours. I couldnt sleep cz the road conditions were so bad n even if i sleep my head keeps hitting the back support evry nw n then. I din dare to lie flat n sleep although i had the whole back compartment to myself cz i din trust the driver. He's a nice guy la bt ther's something abt the look on his face, he looks like a villain or like the serial killer on the loose and he din even smile la throughout the time he was driving. Oh ya the van had tis vcd player thingy, which will flip open at the push of a button. ( cool ah din expect the tech to b tht advanced in INDIA ) But wht's the point of having a VCD player in the van when ur CDS are damn damn outdated. And juz bcz u (the driver) like to watch those black & white tamil films to keep urself awake while u r driving dun expect us ( passengers) to oso enjoy the film as well. Even ma dad whu will usually enjoy this kinda movies once in a while was like dozing off so u can figure out i was feeling ya. And thanks to our tour agent whu was also ma guardian during my stay there, we din get to stay in a really decent hotel at some places bcz he kept delaying our hotel bookings till the eleventh hour. It was also getting late n we juz needed a place to like rest, n then shower in the morn cz i was totally against night riding ( i din wan 2 die in India of all places cz ther's no guarantee tht my body is goin to return to s'pore in 1 piece haha..). And ya i'm a vayasu ponnu (i dun knw hw 2 translate) and dad din wan 2 spend too much of time hunting for a hotel to stay so we settled for a lodge room instead. This happened like 2 times. If i knew tht the conditions were goin to b tht bad i think i wld hav juz slept in the van. Both instances, the toilets were bad, the bed was hard, ther were few lizards accompanying us in the room. The mosquitoes were feasting on our blood. The mosquitoes in India are like damn thick skin la, no matter how much repellent u put on, or hw much axe oil u rub on ur skin, it doesnt make a difference 4 them. In Singapore i hardly get to see a mosquito cz ther r either tiny or i dno la bt ther was it's so big like u get to see the whole body structure of theirs juz like the enlarged version frm our pri sch sci textbooks. With regards to food, we kept eating veg items like dosai ,idli, poori except when we stayed at hotels tht was when we ordered non veg fd items under the room service. I din drink any fizzy drinks cz in India it all comes in bottles n it's so gassy, so i stuck to milk which tasted so much better thn Magnolia's fresh milk. Shopping was a bit awkward cz i had 3 bodyguards ( daddy, driver, n guardian the 2 extras were ther so tht tey cld bargain ) whu kept following n watching me closely as if some1 was going 2 kidnap me. I felt damn uncomfortable so i juz chose things out of random. It wld haf been fine if onli daddy was ther bt those 2 extras arh we din even invite them la. And the guardian guy kept opening the shopping bags n commenting on ma choices..hw rude!!!Even daddy was pissed abt it. We also went to this temple, tirupathi which is like one of the most visited temples in Asia. For ma family, it's like a must to visit the temple la if we go India tht is. This temple is located on top of the hill, so the climate was so damn cool. I have nt been to gentings so i dun knw abt the coldness there bt in tirupathy it was really very very cold. We slept without switching on the fans n the air con. Bt the blankets were like covering our whole bdy..it was tht cold. We reached ther like abt 11 plus at night and had problems wif accomodation bcz sum imposter used ma daddy's name n got to enjoy all the VIP services damn. We had to get ready by 330am the next morning to visit the shrine. The thing abt this temple is tht the higher tht amt of bribe u pay the lesser the time u need to queue to see the god. So for those whu cant afford to pay tht much $$$, they will have to wait as long for few days n hours in the long queues juz to see this god. What a prayer!!!!
Thaipusam this yr was different. I manage to officially follow a kavadi, my czan bro's one. It was ma first time following it so i was damn excited. The piercing part was awfully painful for me especially bcz i was recording the video haha. I cldnt feel the distance in the morning when i did the paal kudam ( carrying of milk pots ) but in the evening the whole procession took like 6 hours. We were stopped at many places cz it was too crowded. The temple was juz a few metres away bt we were standing near the entrance for hours. All our legs were hurting like hell. I'll neva 4get this year's thaipusam procession for ma whole life.
-our
love story ;
